Back on Track

For a while now, I have lost track of aspiration for my future self. I thought I had a pretty good idea; finish school, apply for jobs, hope that I get one, and start off with a minimum wage engineering salary. Anyone with half a brain can come up with this plan, but what was missing was my drive for specific things I want out of my life in the next few years.

TravelI am three weeks into my vacation in Hong Kong now, half way through till I return back to Canada, to my regular life. I have learned so much of myself in this short period time than I have than I have in the last few months. My life felt pretty stale this past school year, and this trip was exactly what I needed to renew myself.

Being in a city where I come in contact with as much travellers as there are locals, it opened my eyes to how easy it is for someone to pick up their lives and go to a completely foreign country to either fulfill their vacation time, or to root themselves there to start a new life as an expat and work. I’m so curious when talking to visible minorities here in Hong Kong about the process of placing themselves in a country where it is so culturally, geographically, and linguistically different. I wonder if I would be able to do as they do, and flourish and be fully as happy as I would in the comfort of my home country. It has also got me thinking about where I would be willing to apply for jobs this upcoming year for after I graduate. I’ve always set my eyes on finding any job I can find in Toronto; my plan was that I want to spend my first year out of school in Toronto with or without an engineering job. I know how naive this plan sounds, wanting to move to such an expensive city with no plan only to fulfill my wannabe Torontonian dream. After a year in there, and if I still can’t find a job in the engineering I would look else where, my only destination choices being Vancouver or Hong Kong. I am finally realizing I am too closed minded by limiting myself to these two destination JUST because I’ve been to them both, enjoyed them and feel that I can easily get adapted. I’m going to be in my early 20’s when I graduate, and this is the prime time to take advantage of my youth and independence to work abroad in a strange city. I never felt I was someone that would be grounded in one location for the rest of my life, I use to have such a desire to travel but somehow that got lost in the stress of the time and money I thought I didn’t have.

BrainsAnother contribution to my newly found drive is seeing and meeting so many young professionals. Every single person wants to be successful while they’re still young. That is the time where one is the most beautiful, energetic, and feels like the world is their oyster. Other than the fact that I realized that I myself is attracted to professionals; someone that has their shit together and is supporting their happy life, I myself want to be that as well. My parents always told me to find a rich and intelligent husband, this comment has never irked me till recently. Why would I want to rely my happiness on my partner’s wealth? I want to be able to provide the same happiness myself. I’m constantly finding people I admire, and by doing so I myself want to acquire attributes of these people in myself. I want so much in my life by the time I reach 30, be it a nice comfortable condo, to being well travelled, being able to hold up my own, or just be able to not have to worry about price tags. Until now, I didn’t realize how hard I’m going to have to work in my last year of my engineering degree starting this Fall and after just to be any where close to my dreams for the next few years. I’m finally at a point in my schooling where I’m on track, where I don’t have to worry about failing and staying back another year (all not without working my butt off this past year) I’m so close that my Convocation and Iron Ring is all I can see right now.

I’ve been so nervous about finishing school and the uncertainty of my career that I’ve been putting off really thinking about where I want to be when I’m all done. I feel as though I was too passive, where I’m just going to accept whatever life was going to pass down to me. This trip so far has been a positive impact on me, and I’m interested to see what else will come up by the end of my trip.



Confessions of a Chocolate Girl

FinanceThis summer like last, I am working as a sales representative for a local chocolate company. The only difference with this year, was that not only am I attending potential client sales meetings, I am also delivering, collecting money, reorder follow ups, social media public relations, and anything miscellaneous task that my boss asks of me. 

It’s not a bad gig, it’s just being one of the few employees, and basically being the face of the company with our clients, it get stressful in the fact that my boss expects so much from me. I have definitely my skills in this job where even I am surprised at how much I have grown as an employee. 

Last year, I was partnered up with another girl to do sales. She was a recent communications graduate who was definitely more skilled in the communications department than I was. Also, because she was older, she took charge of our sales meetings more than I did, at times I felt as though I was her assistant. We got paid the same, so I didn’t mind. We were also selling an idea, there was no packaging on our products yet, and we were just getting people to agree to pick up our product when production starts with no strings attached. I returned to school in September, so I had to leave the job at the end of Summer.

I got offered the job again at the start of Summer this year. Being away from the company, where it has now started production and delivery, my boss got their current sales rep to train me. She got offered another job so she was training me to replace her. Watch her at our sales meeting was very educational, but at the same time intimidating. She graduated with Marketing, so she knew what she was doing. Shortly after she left, I did struggle. The apparently difference of this year was that I will be working alone. It was fun working with a partner, the day goes by so much faster with a friend. A problem that came up was that most of the obvious stores that would carry our products we have already targeted, I had to be creative with finding new stores. Soon saturation became apparent so I had to cross the Quebec border to do my sales there. Second problem is that I’m not French. I stopped taking French after grade 10. I’m not completely horrible, I pick up languages pretty easily, but it’s still annoying that my boss expects me to have the same success as I would in Ontario. 

Things started to look up as I was finally meeting my boss’ expectation and then he decided to sent me to Toronto to train a new sales rep that he hired. The week after, he sent me to Montreal to do the same thing. Going into the city was pretty fun, it’s was especially cool when people ask me what I’m doing in the city, and I tell them it’s for work. How baller is that? 

It’s safe to say that in a matter of 3 months, I was able to grow so much in my job. I love that get to create fun relationships with my clients. They seem to really like me and get excited when ever they see me (It’s probably because I have chocolates with me) I’m not going to be a sales rep forever, but it’s good to have had this experience to really tune up on my communication skills in a social setting, and to effectively work by myself to get stuff done.