For a while now, I have lost track of aspiration for my future self. I thought I had a pretty good idea; finish school, apply for jobs, hope that I get one, and start off with a minimum wage engineering salary. Anyone with half a brain can come up with this plan, but what was missing was my drive for specific things I want out of my life in the next few years.
I am three weeks into my vacation in Hong Kong now, half way through till I return back to Canada, to my regular life. I have learned so much of myself in this short period time than I have than I have in the last few months. My life felt pretty stale this past school year, and this trip was exactly what I needed to renew myself.
Being in a city where I come in contact with as much travellers as there are locals, it opened my eyes to how easy it is for someone to pick up their lives and go to a completely foreign country to either fulfill their vacation time, or to root themselves there to start a new life as an expat and work. I’m so curious when talking to visible minorities here in Hong Kong about the process of placing themselves in a country where it is so culturally, geographically, and linguistically different. I wonder if I would be able to do as they do, and flourish and be fully as happy as I would in the comfort of my home country. It has also got me thinking about where I would be willing to apply for jobs this upcoming year for after I graduate. I’ve always set my eyes on finding any job I can find in Toronto; my plan was that I want to spend my first year out of school in Toronto with or without an engineering job. I know how naive this plan sounds, wanting to move to such an expensive city with no plan only to fulfill my wannabe Torontonian dream. After a year in there, and if I still can’t find a job in the engineering I would look else where, my only destination choices being Vancouver or Hong Kong. I am finally realizing I am too closed minded by limiting myself to these two destination JUST because I’ve been to them both, enjoyed them and feel that I can easily get adapted. I’m going to be in my early 20’s when I graduate, and this is the prime time to take advantage of my youth and independence to work abroad in a strange city. I never felt I was someone that would be grounded in one location for the rest of my life, I use to have such a desire to travel but somehow that got lost in the stress of the time and money I thought I didn’t have.
Another contribution to my newly found drive is seeing and meeting so many young professionals. Every single person wants to be successful while they’re still young. That is the time where one is the most beautiful, energetic, and feels like the world is their oyster. Other than the fact that I realized that I myself is attracted to professionals; someone that has their shit together and is supporting their happy life, I myself want to be that as well. My parents always told me to find a rich and intelligent husband, this comment has never irked me till recently. Why would I want to rely my happiness on my partner’s wealth? I want to be able to provide the same happiness myself. I’m constantly finding people I admire, and by doing so I myself want to acquire attributes of these people in myself. I want so much in my life by the time I reach 30, be it a nice comfortable condo, to being well travelled, being able to hold up my own, or just be able to not have to worry about price tags. Until now, I didn’t realize how hard I’m going to have to work in my last year of my engineering degree starting this Fall and after just to be any where close to my dreams for the next few years. I’m finally at a point in my schooling where I’m on track, where I don’t have to worry about failing and staying back another year (all not without working my butt off this past year) I’m so close that my Convocation and Iron Ring is all I can see right now.
I’ve been so nervous about finishing school and the uncertainty of my career that I’ve been putting off really thinking about where I want to be when I’m all done. I feel as though I was too passive, where I’m just going to accept whatever life was going to pass down to me. This trip so far has been a positive impact on me, and I’m interested to see what else will come up by the end of my trip.